Sunday, May 20, 2012

Bloggers in Sin City Recap:

What's scary? Pushing yourself out of your comfort zone. Let me confess that I'm super skeptical of group trips and on the subject of being roommates with a stranger. In college I went on a group trip to Israel that was supposed to include, "mild outdoor activity," according to the brochure. We climbed all the mountains up steep crumbling trails and slept in all the leaky tents. I swore I would never go on another group trip. It just seemed like all the too many intense things. Anyone up for a tour of machine guns facing Lebanon? Are you ready for an intimidating prayer session at the Western Wall with all the wailing? No? I hear that. When Bloggers in Sin City came along with such nicely designed materials with mentions of all the food, fun, sun, and all the clever people: I stopped debating when I saw no mention of competitive camel riding. 

Everyone should hear Germana sing Lionel Richie in the muppet voice. 
All 59 of the attendees rock. Someone put a pile of The 100 Dollar Startup by Chris Guillebeau on a coffee table and everyone all dressed up to go out dancing wanted books on entrepreneurship. HI SMART PEOPLE DOING ALL THE THINGS. If they're not into startupy things they are super funny, make ice cream full time, make the freelance writer thing happen, create television shows, or can just enjoy some peace and quiet. I love you all. I find the entire concept beyond this event inspiring. It's not another convention or a conference. My Dad called it a convention and I cringed. The founder wanted`to throw the best ever group celebration so she did. Go Nicole. Oh and my roommate has the best singing voice ever, loves theater, and is also tortured by Grey's Anatomy. Mikael is going to be famous. She is the winner of the pool booty shaking contest. We love Grey's. We hate all the Grey's. Did you see the season finale. It's INSANE.


For once I remembered not to take myself too seriously when meeting new people. I believe most people would feel comfortable connecting during the year if they come to New York, which would be awesome. Sometimes that's not so easy to say. I apologize if I asked you, "What did you do today?" at least nineteen times. My other favorite follow-up question, "So are you still from San Diego? Like you were yesterday?" Conversations with new people often have a hilarious flow. What do you follow, "OOO your dress is so sparkly with?" At some point I just decided to go with it and feel confident. I also allowed myself to say things like, "I must sleep now or I become all the New York City crazy." I came prepared to say no to all the camels and there were no camels. Just enough buffet food to feed all the third world countries. Monday is going to be rough when I can't get  pineapple with all the steak and with all the sushi. Don't worry I know my life is not exactly rough.  I really don't claim to understand Las Vegas but when they go and put a giant pink elephant in their shops it starts to make sense. Always keep adding more shine. 





Monday, May 14, 2012

Things I Love Right Now:

Photo by Steven Meisel for May Vogue

What a week! On Thursday, I leave for Bloggers in Sin City so of course this week is crawling by s-l-o-w-l-y. I have so many ideas for blogging that I've spent this week trying to write eight posts at the same time. If anyone out there ever needed to meditate right now it's me.  Ideas I bantered about included a rant on the popular Fifty Shades of Grey and an update on how to love your body. You don't need to hear more about Fifty Shades of Grey. Why is it so hard to do one thing at a time?

What was cool this week?

1. Met Ball!

I live on the same street as the Metropolitan Museum of Art and got to catch the stars heading into the Costume Institutes's Met Ball. Anna Wintour waved in my general direction. It's funny how clothes in the store do not have nearly the same effect as seeing them on people like Cameron Diaz. Diaz could carry off a potato sack. It was my first time experiencing a glamorous red carpet event and I even enjoye it from across the street. How cool is it if you actually get to go inside? Tomorrow, I'm going to the new Prada and Schiaparelli exhibit at the Metropolitan Museum of Art.

2. Tumblr Time!
I love VOGUE's Tumblr and it inspired me to work on my own, which you can find right here. I'm really happy with the old cinema look that it has. I'll let you know if I think up an outlandish meme that goes viral like jungle animals wearing diamonds. I should so run with that. Where can I get my hands on a tiger and billions of dollars in jewels?

2. The 200 Greatest Moments in Design!
If you love making beautiful and meaningful work this issue of Computer Arts magazine is obsession worthy.  It isn't Gossip Girl but it is time to feed your brain and train your eye. You could spend a day just reading about some of the coolest additions to modern design history. I look forward to spending even more time with this. 
3. The Beaded Christian Louboutin Shoes:
These are the shoes of the week! That should be an official feature, right? I saw these sold out in my size works of art in the Christian Louboutin store and I am intrigued by them. I want one of the "Do-It Yourself," bloggers to write about how to make them. Should I attempt to make a pair of these? I can only imagine that these must be sewn by hand by someone with an insane amount of patience. 
4. Red velvet pancakes!
These look so delicious and here's a recipe from That's So Yummy. I can't wait to try making these. 
Berry Desserts!
5. Martha Stewart put together 60 berry desserts and if you made one for someone they'd owe you big time. They are so summery! I also just admire the food styling because re-touching strawberries and icing can take a second lifetime. 
Sip on This!
6. Ready for summer? Serve drinks in cute jars! Pink lemonade please!

Wear more pink!
7. I can't scientifically prove it but wearing more pink boosts your energy and confidence. I love this jacket from Oasis. It matches the lemonade and I didn't even plan that. 

Have a wonderful week! 


Sunday, May 6, 2012

35 Things I Love About My Body:


The other day I fell on my ass in yoga class due to a physical condition I've had my entire life. I crumpled. Shouldn't mornings at the gym be liberating and empowering? Hot yoga at 100 plus degrees often feels like masochism and a practical joke. Yoga did save my life in November when I lost my job and felt like my whole life was broken. The yoga studio was the one place I went during the whole, "If you need me I'll be in my cave," phase. My teachers really helped me fight back.

I felt like the conductor on the bitch and whine train when I fell.  My knee is about as flexible as an oak tree so my "Warrior 3," looks like I'm a gym class slacker. I can find multiple gym teachers who can confirm that I'll run from a volleyball. At 7:15 in the morning I feel out of my lane at the gym. Only the top students go in the morning and me. I feel ambushed. Having a year long contract is the only thing that kept me from quitting this week as I was a big pity party. The gym's general manager has decided she's better off ignoring my e-mails. I've been writing people notes full of, "Who pushes someone so hard by grabbing their knee that they fall?" That's what yoga teachers do. GULP. This means full fledged crazy quilt status has landed.

I've never wanted to play field sports and hope that my raised glove will get the job done. I've never tried it but I don't think it's physically possible for me to slide into home.  I'm your delicate friend who goes mountain biking and then her hands hurt or her shoes make her feet hurt. It feels like it is always something. It often seems like my center of gravity is on my face. Not many Americans hold the unique distinction of having broken an ankle in another country (Italy). Years of every failure I've attached to my body came flooding back. My teacher looked horrified after trying to make my liquid knee work and responded, "Oh, I thought you were strong in that leg?" I inherited a  muscle condition from my Mom, which is about 95 letters long. I often have a numb feeling in my left leg that I have to push through.

Fancy sounding muscle condition and I have been together forever. Balance is near non existent on my left side and I always feel like I'm trying to protect it. "What do you mean I'm not strong asshole? This is me being me."

I want to be as fast and as agile as everyone else. I can't help but want to go back and talk to seven year old me who was tested for bone cancer and say, "You passed! So get over it and LIVE. LARGE. Don't worry about being perfect or as fast as that loudmouthed Evan Pettit."

How would my life be different if I had never heard about my magic knee? I'd work on my balance without believing I'll never get there. I'd be a bit more patient with myself with everything from hiking to skiing all the way to surfing. Almost accepting that is "just the way it is and has to be" seemed like a possibility this week. I felt like I was in last place and that I'll always be in last place. You are never in LAST place because that's called being dead.  I also have this crazy desire to move, shake my adorable ass, and even to run.  Sometimes one city block feels like I've run enough. I can not stay home because I have a liquid knee. I'm learning to stop caring about what it all looks like. Oh and there's that part where I'm the only one who cares in the first place.

I just started using the Nike Fuelband and and I hit my fitness goal today just like anyone can. Even with all the barely just jogging. ME. What do you love about your body?

I own two knees!



Things I Love About My Body:
  1. It is the vehicle to my dreams. 
  2. The ability to have an orgasm! I've seen some lists that left this off...what the heck people?!
  3. I can ride a bike. Learning how to do that was such a big deal when it happened.
  4. I can swim in the ocean and not get eaten up by sharks. 
  5. I can dance like nobody is watching.
  6. It heals broken bones. 
  7. I sweat when I play hard.  I see no reason not be proud of it. 
  8. I have strong legs even when they hurt
  9. I can shlep a crazy amount of luggage through an airport
  10. I have a cute butt.
  11. I have clear skin. 
  12. I don't need to wear a lot of makeup and when I do I do it for fun. 
  13. I'm flexible. A crazy deep stretch is my jam. 
  14. I look younger then I am which should help as the years go by!
  15. I can hug people which I should do more of.
  16. I have dimples and like to smile a lot. I'm expressive. 
  17. I have a beauty mark on my chin. 
  18. I can successfully meditate and let go of all the thoughts racing through my head. 
  19. I make the best silly faces.
  20. I have high cheek bones. 
  21. I have pretty green/gray eyes
  22. I have an elegant nose.
  23. I never had to pray for boobs.
  24. My hair looks cute in a messy bun and even better blown out.
  25. I make friends asking people to get stuff from the high shelf. 
  26. I love shopping for clothes and accessories for us. 
  27. I get to wear a lot of dresses because I can never find pants that fit. Fancy by default?
  28. I can wear cute boots all the way up my calves. 
  29. My nails look better with red polish.
  30. I love spa treatments.
  31. My size/booty qualifies me for va-va-voom. 
  32. My height makes it possible for people to pick me up and spin me!
  33. I can rock glitter, prints, and bright colors
  34. I'm writing this for myself despite what anyone might think. 
  35. I love that I'm healthy right now!







Saturday, May 5, 2012

Paintings by Marina Fedorova

When I can't figure out what to blog out about all I have to do is go out and wander around my neighborhood. Today, I picked up new Nike sneakers and a Fuelband because I want to get into running. My knee is feeling way to stiff.  I spotted the work of Russian painter, Marina Fedorova in a gallery and knew her work was unique. I love the combination of high fashion and action packed settings. Not many painters attempt to depict the modern woman running around the crazy city trying to feel stylish.


Tuesday, May 1, 2012

The Stratejoy Bookclub and Friendship in Your 20's:


If you had told me I would be reading about friendship back in college I would have said, "You're crazy! All of this friendship stuff just happens naturally" Yet, this book caught my eye as the Stratejoy book selection for May. Here's the deal with the old wives tale that friendships are just supposed to happen naturally between people: life has to be conquered first. Meeting total strangers after college doesn't always feel so natural even if you're Barney from How I Met Your Mother. 

I have flashbacks to time spent with my school roommate from Mexico. I will always remember explaining the workings of suburban Massachusetts to someone looking for salsa dancing on a Wednesday night. "So that's not something we really have here often?"  I've also had to say things like, "I guess America is totally broken! You're totally right?" and "You can't drink beer in my car!" That's often followed up with, "Even while it's moving!" and "Because I said so!" Nothing builds an awkward friendship like being labeled the uptight American who won't won't even park in handicap spaces.

Taking a class is supposed to be a great way to meet people except when it's being all what is THIS? My night school and advertising graduate classes are filled with irritable zombies who often threaten to deck our professor in the face. Advertising classes function on a social roller coaster where you want to be friends with the kid whose work everyone loves and if your stuff has just been ripped to shreds it's going to be one hell of a lonely evening.  We're the kind of group that does the homework on the train on the way in and then wants to cry about it. From time to time I take a craft class like glassblowing and I know that a 5'2 gal wielding a ball of molten glass on a ten foot long pole looks kind of scary. "Be my friend but mind the fire ball." Technically, it's a deadly weapon. I miss the simple games we played in first grade like bean bag and parachute. Must we melt things and tear up drawings Mayan football style? What's with all the pyromania and the quest for world domination?

If we're going to a bar together I've probably read your Linkedin profile, seen your Pinterest, Tweeted with you, and we've probably Facebook stalked each other. Then there's the weird twist where if I like your blog I'll want to chill based upon your understanding of aesthetic sense and writerly voice. I know. So geeky. My last boyfriend was something of an anomaly with no Facebook page. A part of me still wonders what is he hiding?

When I examine what happens naturally I want to face palm myself. This rule does not do the job well. My childhood best friend is an ecologist and is voluntarily spending this summer in Kansas studying birds. She'd rather buy camping equipment then go to the beach.  All of my high tech talk falls on uninterested ears and I find myself volunteering to go places for quality time like, "The Great Swamp," to fill out something called an "ecologist journal." I'm constantly asked not to make fun of bird watching and I feel like I've never been forgiven for going, "So that's a thing?" It's not that I'm ungrateful but who else in my life teaches me about seagulls and beetle varieties? I'm out of a practice having slept through a bunch of my high school environmental science classes. Next to her.

Birds are a personal fear of mine and only recently have I stopped crossing the streets to get away from pigeons. It's comically unnatural watching me try to connect with an ecologist. I feel like if I'm super encouraging about all the reptiles I'll finally be let off the hook for the one time in eighth grade when I bailed on her for my new boyfriend.  Despising birds for me goes all the way back to Disney movies. I personally loved the episode of the Big Bang Theory when Sheldon holds a bird for the first time. It was pretty darn moving. Sheldon Cooper meet Melanie.

Recently, I left an  agency job and my former colleagues are always swooning all over each other over Facebook. I get 9000 reminders a day that company X is exactly like heaven due to all the free flapjacks, candy shared on birthdays, shared tastes in music, trips to the game, and taco parties. I find myself e-mailing, "Congratulations on your engagement!" to my old boss because I read about it on Twitter. I'm that girl, now? Due to the Internet I know when my former manager is at the gym two doors down from my home. And then there's how much they know about me.

It only gets weirder in the naturally unnatural department. My best friend from camp invited me to go to the movies with her and her father. Who does that? Apparently if I need more from a career then free pancakes and don't bring my Dad to the movies...I'm out numbered? I also can not decide if I want to let my high school best friend off the hook for leaving me at home to go get hair extensions when I was home with a broken ankle. It seems a bit high maintenance of me to expect a complete princess to put her hair care schedule on hold. I wonder what we have in common.

I try not to think about if my own decisions have ever messed up my supposed fate (yes, I know the point of fate and asking stupid questions). I met one of my college best friends in a revolving door where we yelled about being from New Jersey through the spinning glass. What if I was meant to walk through another door? Also, this college best friend is the kind of person who mopes all the time about her career and refuses to blast out cover letters, update a blog, intern anywhere, or even take a class. My regular, "Go get em!" speeches have me labeled insensitive. I've learned the hard way that I can't build and pay for someone's website to make them stop moping. Mopers gonna mope. Haters gonna hate.

I can barely make it through dinners where I have to hear about how someone who spent the day reading about reincarnation needs a job that pays $70,000 to make their student loan payments. I judge. Hit the X box on this window if it bothers you. I'm looking for a balance between people who live at work and people who think brewing tea is an ambitious day. Watching people suffer through the bumps in the twenty something road overwhelms me. There's nothing more soul sucking then working somewhere you've outgrown. I just have no idea what to say to comfort someone going through that so I usually come up with some totally inane answer like, "There's always teaching English in Korea! You'll love it!" When you suggest your friends move away to Asia they often get the wrong idea. Then there's my college best friend who once tried to cancel a trip because her house was being tented for termites. I confirmed real bugs to make sure I would not need to schedule a week of full on depression. That's when I laid down the one friendship rule I know for sure, "I refuse to lose to bugs. Pack your stuff."






Monday, April 30, 2012

Things I Love Right Now:



I just got back from a trip to South Beach and here are a few highlights from my week! What were yours? 

1. Flannery and I got stuck in an elevator on Saturday at an outdoor Florida mall and it was so scary. There was no air conditioning in this elevator and then it started shaking.  I nearly stopped breathing and fell over. Yea, I was that person who thinks this is the end.  Flannery could not stop giggling uncontrolably. This makes my, "Things I Love" list because 1. We escaped to tell the story and 2. Flannery is a great person (she's a nurse too ) to go through a near death experience with. 

2. I am in the process of re-launching my personal design and photography portfolio. I'm going to continue to add new work and devote May to shooting much more personal work.

3. I've been dreaming about taking a trip to India and every year the Holi festival is full of people celebrating colors. In the United States we have the Color Run, which was all over Facebook this week. If I run the Color Run in August this year it will be my first 5K!

4. How cool is the world's largest mechanical elephant? Who wouldn't want to go for a ride?

5. I had a Nutella hot chocolate at Little Brown bakery in my neighborhood and it was incredible. Adding Nutella to anything makes it heavenly.

6. Send someone cupcakes already! I gave this idea to a friend applying for a job and the company put a picture of the cupcakes she sent on their Facebook page. It's the best way to show your appreciation for someone and get noticed. It's also a lot of fun!

7. I tried Haagen-Dazs Mago Sorbet this weekend at the Lowes Hotel in Miami Beach for the first time. It was so delicious. Eat mango sorbet on a hot day while listening to a beautiful piece of music and you can thank me later. I am very intrigued by my new book, A Case of Exploding Mangoes.


8. In Miami, the girls and I tried this unique (to say the least) restaurant called Barton G. The drinks are served steaming and the ice cream came with fireworks. The waiter described it as, "Chucky Cheese for grownups." I convinced Janell to try lobster for the first time but Kathryn is still holding out on lobster. Lobster is wonderful. I promise I'm a regular person who normally survives on ramen. Have I convinced you to try lobster yet? It's worth it. I should devote this energy to the perfect cause so remember to love life. 




Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Creating a Soul Profile:



This has been an interesting few days. Just like so many people I'm struggling with learning when to turn down people, projects, and offers. I am learning that if you jump into everything you can't focus on what you want.  This week, I turned down my very first project and it feels good to be following my heart. In the past, I felt like I had to take on every project to be humble and to be a great friend. This is so freeing I think I may adopt saying, "no" more often and not feeling all consuming guilt. My intuition hasn't slept so soundly in awhile. 

I've been following Oprah's Lifeclass series and honestly it's phenomenal. If you can't take something away from these teachers then you need to try just a bit harder. Deepak Chopra suggested filling out a Soul Profile, which will begin to shape what you ask from life. Here's an example of Dr. Chopra's Soul Profile. I encourage you to try and start filling one out because the simple act of writing about yourself inches closer towards knowing and finding what you want out of each day. 
What is my purpose for being here?
-to build joy and laugh often
-to connect with other people
-to help other people be strong
-to liberate stuck beauty
-to be patient with other people and myself
-to create spiritual food fearlessly
-to experience surprises
-to conquer scary emotions
-to free creative energy
-to make mistakes
-to follow my heart

What will be your contribution to the world?
-to be a mentor and inspire the struggling
-to share/create inspiration and spiritual food
to make the creative process great and safe for this world
-to share tasty food and build educational tools
-to connect people who thrive on art 

What do you see as your unique talents?
-my sense of humor
-my love of people and connection
-my desire to learn
-my love of adventure

What are the best qualities you display in your closest relationships?
-loyalty
-honesty
-playfulness
-sharing
-great taste

Who are your heroes in myth and legend?
my Grandma Belle
my Grandpa Lenny
Lucille Ball
Billy Wilder 
Benjamin Franklin
John Adams
Shakespeare
Noel Coward
Benazir Bhutto
Queen Victoria
General Patton
Steve Jobs

Which qualities do you most admire in others?
-warmth
-openness 
-wit
-creativity
-confidence
-dedication
-organization
-integrity
-perseverance
-loyalty
-honesty

What are the peak moments of your life?
Graduating from high school felt like I everything I had worked for made sense.
Watching my Dad graduate from chef school made me proud to see someone pursuing an ambition.
Riding the ferry to the islands of the coast of Maine is so freeing to my spirit.
Jet skiing anywhere makes me think my spirit is meant to live on the ocean.
Running around London and Paris with Kathryn Clark was a phenomenal experience and not something we would have each done on our own.
Flying over the Grand Canyon and the Las Vegas strip in a helicopter forced me to conquer a fear!
Being invited to the White House made me question all the limitations I place on what we can do.